Before the Worst – The Script

(see full lyrics below)



If Only...



Have you ever felt that there were things that you should not have said, or things that you should not have done? If you knew that telling someone you love them would be the reason why you would lose them, would you still have chosen to do the same thing? Or would you have preferred to keep your feelings to yourself just to save whatever you have with that person?


Sometimes, even if we have pure and honest intentions, the result of our actions may not be what we were hoping for. And as much as we would want to be able to go back in time to mend whatever we have broken, it's just not possible. The only thing we can do is to move on; or try to pick up the broken pieces and start over.


The question is, do you want to move on, or do you want to pick up the pieces? What if you don't want to move on, but the other person does not want to pick up the pieces anymore? Would you force yourself to just move on?


I wanted to move on, but I just simply can't. Sometimes, loving someone is not just a state of mind. It is an unexplainable feeling that you cannot control, no matter how you try. It's something that grips your entire being and something that you can't simply shake off or forget about. And I can't move on, because I don't want to - not yet.


The painful part is that the moment you start to feel that you have found your perfect match, your soul mate, the person that will compliment you in all aspects, that's the same moment that you also realize that you have lost him. And it feels that after all that's been said and done, there's no way for you to get him back. What's worse is that you can't even feel that you still exist in his world, or if he even cares that you are hurting because of him. And you don't even have a clue as to what went wrong.


I really thought we had something special. I was led to believe that. I am not an amateur in the game of love, and I knew better than to assume. Maybe we really had something special. Or, maybe I was just blinded by how I felt for him, that's why I thought he also felt the same way for me. But no matter how many times I crack my brain thinking of what went wrong, or what could have happened if I kept my mouth shut, or what he really feels, I won't know the answers because they are simply beyond my reach.


At this point, I can't do anything about it anymore, rather than hope that something good will happen after all of these. To hope, that someday, I will still be given the chance to find out the answers to my questions. To hope that someday, he can still be my friend. For now, I can only think of the special moments we have shared, and treasure those moments as if they were the most expensive gems I have ever possessed.


Loving someone and being loved back is the most wonderful feeling a person can have. But we have to accept the fact that we are not living in a fairy tale, and sometimes, we have to fall in love and get hurt several times before we meet our Prince Charming and reach our happy ending. Sometimes, we simply have to let go, so that our wounds can heal. Sometimes, we have to let go so that we can love ourselves first and in time be able to share that love with someone who is ready to acknowledge his feelings and love you back.


We just always have to believe that everything happens for a reason. And believe that it is not other people's actions, but how we react or cope with the situation, that will lead us to find our true happiness. Moving on does not always mean you have to forget the person who has caused you pain. Sometimes, moving on can also mean you want to forget the painful things that happened, and focus on the good things that you have shared. Moving on means getting all the lessons you need to learn and being able to pick up the pieces and start over without any bitterness or hurt. Thus, I will choose to move on and hope that someday, everything will fall into place.



BEFORE THE WORST

The Script

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you where mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then well rise above it, well rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we use to, just like we use to

Lets take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong